Sprinkle me with stars

Fuck this

2012-02-01T22:48:00.001+08:00

I need a breather from all these fking shit.
When i had a choice, i didn't want it.
Now that i rejected NJ, i'm starting to want it again.
What the fuck is wrong with me.
I didn't want to go NJ cos of canoeing, like it was tedious and all,
trng 5-6 times per week.
But i realised tdy i need a good portfolio with my cca too, and i was thinking of joining squash.
But then again, i may not get into the school team.
So i started regretting NJ.
ARGH FUCK THIS.
TJ is alright but whenever i think about nj's uniform, good academic notes and good portfolio i feel like some awful shit again.
The cons of gg nj=
becoming overly tan, buff
being only able to go home at 7pm from macritchie reservoir everyday
trng everyday
having to canoe with menses which rly can suck.
So now i'm stuck in tj, a little part of me really wants nj badly but I was the stupid one to reject nj so what else can i do?
And no close friends in tj too, i rly feel like dying.
I feel sorry leaving esther alone in nj canoeing.
Perhaps gg nj wasnt too bad afterall, there's esther to go sch, go home, go trng with.
But then again, I know myself.
I'm not as tough, determined, strong-willed as esther.
I was afraid I might not cope in nj, i might detest school with the ongoing trng everyday.
FUCK.
And if i accepted nj, i would still be regretting not staying in tj so yeah.
WHY CAN'T MY APPEAL TO NJ JUST FAIL???????!!!!
THEN I WOULDN'T BE FEELING SO FKING MISERABLE NOW.
And no one rly cares, they're all happy in their own school.
I seem to be the only loser still dwelling over the posting results.

2012-01-31T22:53:00.000+08:00

wondering where you are now):
miss talking to u a little

Won't regret when i look back

2012-01-31T20:39:00.001+08:00

Oh my fuck.
I seriously don't know where i plucked the courage from but i just rejected nj.
But i don't wanna lose to you still.
I'm gna study mad hard and bloom in TJ.
TATA, I'M STARTING TO LOVE TJ TOO.

):

2012-01-30T12:39:00.001+08:00

I SHOULD HAVE JUST FOLLOWED MY HEART.

Dream Team

2012-01-29T23:38:00.000+08:00

Really glad I had the heart figured out :)
Now I'm back to who I used to be.
Anyway had reunion dinner at kor's house.
It was rather awkward at first...
And I was the only girl who didn't wear dress!
):< SIGH!
But it was quite fun hehe.
Thanks for inviting us to dream team's gathering!
I will really miss you guys.
Where will i be able to find such brother-ly friends to take care of me, like how you guys do? :)

reflections

2012-01-29T00:06:00.001+08:00

Meet my best friend

2012-01-28T19:27:00.004+08:00

Its such a coincidence we got the same L1R5;)
Really hope we end up in the same school!!!
If touch wood, we don't, we must still keep in touch by hook or by crook okay!

Library date

2012-01-27T20:17:00.004+08:00

HEHEHE.

will miss u, must have studydates alright!

2012-01-27T11:29:00.001+08:00

Too young to mess with you pple.

Who is

2012-01-26T23:36:00.006+08:00

Last day

2012-01-25T20:12:00.001+08:00

Gonna miss you guys so much! )':

Anw, got myself mentally prepared that i'll end up in tj alone.

Well, this is for not studying hard enough and slacking my way through in cedar!

I can't wait for school to start though, even though i'll prolly be alone on the first day?

Everyone else would be in let's say, AC? RI?

Hmm and i can't wait to get through this passing phase too, it feels so awful and torturous.

In the end, its still gonna be back to strangers, ain't it?

Bottomline: All's well that ends well.

Its just back to hoping against hope and praying hard.

happy new year!

2012-01-24T13:22:00.003+08:00

My nephew and niece are soooooo cute!!!!! ^^

Regis waited for me outside the toilet and wanted to hold my hand after i came out:p

"Come, follow me there" he said that so softly cos

he became all shy after that hahaha, cutiepie.

He came to the sofa to find me to play with him his toy cars too.

He's a handsome boy man, not forgetting he has the korean look!

Bria's a pretty little girl too, she has beautiful eyes.

Ahhh they were so cute^^

easy come easy go

2012-01-22T00:02:00.003+08:00

It's a moody night.

No particular reason, just... don't feel too happy.

Anw eminem's rap spoils bruno mars' lighters sigh):

Suddenly feel that I have no life, if anyone gets what i mean.

PLAY! FT ISLAND

2012-01-18T22:31:00.006+08:00

this chocolate is so appropriate: moments to TREASURE

PUN here intended!

to be continued..

(i'm watermarking the fti pics first!)

A lazy saturday

2012-01-14T13:15:00.003+08:00

Finally a free saturday!:D
Not that i don't like working, but haven't got a free day like this for quite a while already.
So, kayaking was fun!!
It revived my passion for kayaking seriously.
Although i said i wasn't gna kayak anymore after that horrendous trng at hwachong, I still went for trng at macritchie today.
The water was so much, so much cleaner than kallang river's...
That horrible experience: seeing a dead rat floar by when i just got onto shore, paddling with twigs and leaves around you and seeing dead fishes float by your kayak.
That totally grossed me out.
Anw, i got sunburnt again!
Plusplusplus, tomorrow is FT ISLAND's concert<3<3<3, which contributes to my happiness index.

I actually thought of forgoing their autograph session, for you.
LOL, I was such a joke.
I shall not be bothered anymore.

Voluntourism: Cambodia Trip

2012-01-14T01:22:00.014+08:00

In another life, I would make you stay.

2012-01-14T00:01:00.000+08:00

Hi, i guess i'm back to blogging.
So, 'The One That Got Away' is stuck on my head haha.
Anyway, i'm glad i'm back to normal, no more emo etc.
Firstly, submitted my choices so one heavy load off the shoulders.
And i went for work today with sabbie:)
Pondered about alot of things while working today!
Cleared my head pretty much and i'm feeling rather good now.
Have i mentioned how enjoyable work can get?
Haha maybe its because i haven't worked for a while and that i finally got to work with sab again after so long.
Working in canon has been a really superb experience, i'm so reluctant to stop working ):
Sigh, i guess i must have been really lucky to meet such an awesome group of colleagues.
i suppose i wouldn't have been treated so nicely if i worked somewhere else this hols.
Made so many lovely friends who cared for me and treated me like their lil sister the whole time.
i can't bear to stop work!